My First Love

You’re my first love,

first fall out.

My anchor –

never any doubt.

 

You’re my critic;

advisor.

My top fan –

older and wiser.

 

You’re my blanket;

soft and warm.

My shelter –

away from the storm.

 

You’re my safe house;

protection.

My compass –

for lost direction.

 

You’re my conscience;

living coach.

My goodness –

you never encroach.

 

You’re my first call;

always there.

My best friend –

and you’ll always care.

 

You’re my favourite.

What did I do

to deserve

a mother like you?

 

We returned from my mother-in-law’s funeral this evening and all things considered, it went well. It was yesterday, St. Paddy’s Day, and we joked how her husband trumped that with his Christmas Eve funeral. She had “a good turn out” and many people shared happy memories and funny stories.  My husband held it together well and we drove back home on the same old road that we always have. When we got in I checked for phone messages and that’s when he broke down. He always phoned his mum when we got in to say we had arrived home safely. He had no one to phone tonight. It got me thinking about how my parents are my anchor. They’ve been through it all with me; the highs and lows and they’ve always fought my corner. I’ve secretly (and possibly immaturely) thought that if my life went haywire then at least I could go live with my parents. I’m 41 and I still think this. My husband has lost his safety net now with both his parents gone 😦

7 thoughts on “My First Love

  1. It’s so sad, our parents are our anchors. I know I go on about my mum and I ring her at least twice a day, that is something that will get me when she has gone. I always think at least my daughters have good husbands when I am no longer here. But now realise that I am their anchors. It’s the way of life. Unfortunately we all have to go through it at some point 🌹

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  2. I so get that. It leaves you feeling totally exposed and unmoored. I am the oldest of three siblings and the idea that it fell to me to keep the family together now was overwhelming. Took me a long time to get my land legs back. It will probably be that way for awhile. I’m thinking of you guys… ❤

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    • Thank you and sorry to read that you’re overwhelmed and feel responsible to keep your siblings all together. That’s a big responsibility and then I wonder, why should you have it (unless you want it)?

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