Nobody Knows Her

 

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I know a few people who wear a mask for the outside world and I find it sad:

Because she’s insecure

she boasts of achievements.

Because she feels unattractive

she reapplies the lipstick and pouts.

Because she worries he’s bored

she flirts with the others.

Because she craves love

she holds on to her own.

Because she’s uneducated

she bombards them with facts.

Because she feels dull

she scatters her fake glitter.

Because she’s a mess inside

she’s careful on the outside.

 

Nobody knows her –

they never will.

Nobody understands her –

including herself.

 

On an unrelated note, we’ve just been given the awful news that my mother-in-law has 4-6 weeks to live. I can’t imagine being told I had 42 days left to live.  Although we knew she was terminally ill and might not make it until next winter; she’s still whizzing around (albeit now in a Zimmer) and  it’s difficult to imagine she’s not got long left for this earth. I’ll either be cutting way back on my writing due to mental block, or I’ll be writing frantically for the next few weeks. Not sure which yet.

 

 

29 thoughts on “Nobody Knows Her

  1. I’m sorry to hear that, in one way it’s good for everyone to be able to say what they want to say (I wonder if her daughter will still be in denial now) It is also very sad. I could not imagine what it must be like be like to know you had so many days. Personally I would want to be with the people I love and obviously pain free. So sorry Beth, I hope your husband manages xx

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  2. Your poem is a true picture for most of us. We all have our own assortment of masks, don’t we… I’m so sorry to hear about your m-i-l. Three years ago they told us my b-i-l would be gone in six months. He’s still chuggin’ along. Has very little use of his body, but his sense of humor is still there. We keep hoping things will reverse themselves, but I’ve finally come to the conclusion that hope can be cruel sometimes. Will be thinking about you and how this all will gather you up in its unwanted embrace. {{{Beth}}}

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    • Thanks, I remember you telling me he had the same illness (lung cancer) and he’s been holding up. I hope he is comfortable and pain free. MIL has had two fairly good years, but it sadly seems that it’s the brain met’s that are now causing the most damage. Thanks for your words.

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  3. “Because she feels dull
    she scatters her fake glitter.
    Because she’s a mess inside
    she’s careful on the outside.” I love this. Beautiful and powerful. We all done our masks you know? I am sending healing love and light to you and yours xoxo

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