On The Surface

 

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Photo by Eli DeFaria

On the surface I’m just an old lady

Almost invisible

Invisibility grows stronger with the years

Why is that?

 

The effervescence may have dulled on the surface

But if only they took the time, they’d see

Inside I still sparkle

 

I saw you looking at me,

There was something in your expression

Was is pity? Impatience?

But look closer, see me

 

On the surface shallow crevices cover my face

They are testament to the laughter, joy and heartache in my life

Without the heartache I’d never have known the joy

I wear those with pride

my stamp of a life lived full

I wear it well

 

I heard you grumble in the queue at the store

Did you think these old ears didn’t hear?

But look closer, see me

 

On the surface I’m slowing down, faulty?

This body has carried me through life

It’s played with friends

and danced

and walked the aisle

and delivered my babies

and comforted the dying

I wear this old body with pride;  my stamp of a life lived full

I wear it well

 

 

On the surface I’m just a teenager

Too noticeable, in your face

Everyone expects me to be ‘full of life’

Why is that?

 

The effervescence may be bright on the surface

But if only they took the time, they’d see

Inside I’m flat

 

I saw you looking at me,

There was something in your expression

Was is pity? Impatience?

But look closer, see me

 

On the surface my face is soft and vibrant

But it hides the sadness inside

The heartache is hidden beneath the layers

But no one is willing to peel

 

I heard you sigh in the queue at the store

Did you think this young woman didn’t hear?

But look closer, see me

 

On the surface I’m energetic and strong

This body is changing

It’s played with friends

and danced

and cried

and sat alone

and lost people

I wear this young body with gloom; my stamp of a life not lived

I don’t wear it well

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